Author: Terese

  • why do you write?

    why do you write?

    It’s been a while since my last blog post – longer than I had intended. I have a couple of half-drafted posts in the works and a list of ideas for topics to write about, but it’s been hard to motivate myself to focus on any of them.

    Beyond the everyday challenge of finding time to write in between client work, admin, parenting and life, I haven’t been able to find the words to say anything that felt meaningful enough to share in this moment. It has felt impossible to continue posting on this blog without acknowledging what is happening in Gaza.

    Of course, atrocities take place around the world all of the time, and it is impossible to pay attention and respond to them all. This violent world requires us to maintain a high level of emotional disconnection in order to function. But the disconnection of different groups of people from each other – enforced through systemic oppression – is what has led us here. And it is only those who are more protected (by race, class, citizenship, religion, location…) that have the privilege to disconnect and live our lives as if the systemic violence against others is inconsequential to us.

    I’m not writing this from a moral high ground. I have often felt attached to the numbness of non-engagement – of wanting to live my nice little life untroubled by the suffering of others.

    But when I come to the page in that numb state, I struggle to write. My writing self will not allow me to disengage; it goes on strike.

    It brings me back to a basic question: why do I write?

    Reflecting on this question, I came up with a number of reasons:

    • I write to open things up and to make sense of things, to work out what I’m thinking/feeling.
    • I write because I want to change something – to join together with other voices to build towards something different.
    • I write to connect to myself – my hopes and dreams, plans, secrets, worries, despair.
    • I write to connect to others – in the hope that I might write something that touches or is useful to someone else; that it might connect us together in a conversation.
    • I write to get to the truth of something.
    • I write because I hope; when I feel hopeless it is hard to write.
    • I write to research and learn.
    • I write because I can’t not write; to decide not to write again feels like cutting off a part of myself.

    I keep returning to connection. As I’ve written before on this blog, for me, writing is about striving for connection, and to not acknowledge what is happening right now – the genocide of Palestinians – feels like a way of disconnecting from it.

    Aman Ahluwalia writes compellingly about the importance of being able to see injustice and name genocide, while also being able to hold the full humanity of each and every person harmed, Palestinian and Israeli: to ‘refuse binary thinking and honour the pain of each and every victim of this bloody occupation’.

    So, let me add another one to the list: I write to resist dehumanisation.

    The question I am sitting with at the moment is: How do we stay connected in these times, in ways that help us work towards a more humane, just and sustainable world, but without becoming hopeless and overwhelmed?

    In Hanna Jameson’s dystopian novel Are You Happy Now, set in New York in a world very similar to our own (mass economic precarity, impending climate chaos and social breakdown), people suddenly start to sit down and become unresponsive, completely overwhelmed and ultimately giving up on life. The novel chronicles the lives of its protagonists against this backdrop of a pandemic that comes to be known as psychogenic catatonia. As the book’s blurb asks: ‘how can anyone be happy in a world where the only choice is to feel everything – or nothing at all?’

    It is a healthy response to feel heartbroken in this world. It means we have not let ourselves be numbed. Gargi Bhattacharyya suggests that ‘to be heartbroken is the true class consciousness of racial capitalism’.

    So how do we stay and remain connected and engaged with the reality of this world without sitting down and giving up – how do we continue to hold out hope and work towards something different? A large part of the answer lies in collective organising and coming together as communities in solidarity, and these things are beyond necessary right now.

    For me, and many others, writing has a place, too. It may not change the world on its own, but it can help us connect – to ourselves, to each other, to hope. As Palestinian author Adania Shibli writes,

    Literature’s relevance is not to incite change but intimacy and reflection; to bring others back to ourselves, perhaps a field where we can consider how we relate to ourselves and to others, from living to pain; and to guide us towards imagining how to live better.

    (There is so much more to say about this article, which Shibli wrote in response to Frankfurt Book Fair cancelling an award ceremony in her honour, but I will leave that for a future post about the possibilities, and limits, of language).  

    Part of me feels conflicted writing this here, on my business website. While I started this blog to have a space to write publicly again, it also has a marketing purpose – blogging is a way to raise my profile as an editor and hopefully connect with my (in marketing lingo) ‘ideal clients’. I don’t want to be dishonest about this.

    So let me instead be explicit: I want to work with other writers who seek connection in a disconnected world. I am interested in writing that opens up our imagination to different possibilities. Writing that refuses to disregard systemic violence and injustice. Writing that teaches us something about solidarity and intimacy across difference. Writing that helps us see the humanity in each of us. Writing that slows down, pays attention, allows nuance and complexity. Writing committed to hope.

    This is the kind of writing I seek to do and it’s the kind of writing I want to support to flourish.

    Some further resources on Palestine

    Organisations

    BDS Movement

    Campaign Against the Arms Trade – Fact Sheet on UK Arms Sales to Israel

    Jews for Justice for Palestinians

    Makan

    Medical Aid for Palestinians

    Na’amod – British Jews Against Occupation

    Palestine Action

    Palestine Children’s Relief Fund

    Palestine Solidarity Campaign

    Parents for Palestine (Instagram)

    UNWRA

    Books- and publishing-related resources

    Palestinian Feminist Reading List

    Publishers for Palestine

    ‘Radicals in Conversation’ (Pluto Press podcast): On Palestine with Ghada Karmi

    Words Without Borders: A Palestine Reading List

    Image: Photo of cuddly toys outside the UK Foreign Office in London, Parents for Palestine demo, 27th October 2023.

  • is all writing creative?

    is all writing creative?

    If you had asked me five years ago if I thought of myself as a creative person I would have said no. At the time, I was a Sociology lecturer and I was working on the manuscript of my book, based on my PhD research. I struggled a lot with writing the book, much more than I had expected, given that I’d already written the PhD thesis a few years earlier. I wanted the book to be more accessible than the thesis, more engaging and ‘creative’, but I felt like I had no idea how to achieve this. The ‘publish or perish’ pressures of academia and a fear of getting things wrong had stifled my ability to think creatively and enjoy the process. Neither did the heavy workload leave me with energy to read for pleasure across genres or disciplines, which narrowed my imagination in relation to my own writing.

    A year later, I left academia (another story!). Looking back at my writing journey since then, I can see how it has been about recovering a sense of and belief in my creativity. I have experimented with different types of writing, styles and topics (mostly privately, without worrying about publication). My thinking about creativity has shifted during this time – from seeing it as something that only certain people have towards seeing that we are all inherently creative.

    But what is creativity, and, if we all have it, does that mean we all use it?

    What is creativity?

    To stay on the topic of writing, if everyone is inherently creative, does this mean that all writing is creative? In Remembered Rapture: The Writer at Work, the late, great bell hooks (whose work I will come back to in future blog posts) shares the following quote by Nancy Mairs:

    I do not distinguish between creative and critical writing because all writing is creative… Whatever the product – poem, story, essay, letter to lover, technical report – the problem is the same: the page is empty and will have to be filled. Out of nothing, something. And all writing is critical, requiring the same sifting, selection, scrutiny, and judgment of the material at hand. The distinctions are not useful… (Mairs, Voice Lessons: On Becoming a (Woman) Writer: 66)

    Mairs’ approach to creativity intrigues me, as someone who has primarily written (critical, academic) non-fiction so far, but who is interested in creative writing (usually associated with fiction and poetry) and wondering how the two relate. But is Mairs right – is all writing creative? More generally, is creativity simply any activity that results in something appearing out of nothing? And should all and every instance of creativity be celebrated?

    In today’s late capitalist society, we are encouraged to be creative, but only in private or profit-oriented ways.

    The critical thinker in me is not fully satisfied with this ‘everything goes’ version of creativity. In Against Creativity, Oli Mould outlines how European colonisation and capitalist expansionism transformed creativity from being ‘a socialized and collective behaviour’ to ‘an individual characteristic that could be traded’ (think the lone ‘creative genius’ and the privatisation of the arts). In today’s late capitalist society, we are encouraged to be creative, but only in private or profit-oriented ways, whether as workers or consumers (design apps! write content! decorate your house!). Self-help books and podcasts encourage us to reawaken our creative selves, but generally in ways that focus on our own personal healing, with little attention to the wider world.

    In order to be creative, we need space to slow down, daydream and imagine the unknown.

    Mould defines creativity as ‘the power to create something from nothing’, but suggests we need to pay more attention to the power and the something parts: who has the power to create and what is the something that’s being created? Mould argues that creativity has been co-opted in the service of economic growth, with any countercultural/protest movement, art or ideology ‘viewed as a potential market to exploit’. But while he presents a rather bleak picture, he urges us to seek out, support and practise radical forms of creativity, which involves ‘believing in impossible things’ and resisting capitalism’s co-option of our creative powers.

    Some key ingredients of the creative writing process

    From a more critically informed perspective on creative writing, then, the kind of creativity I want to nurture in both my own and others’ writing is less about using particular styles or writing in particular genres, and more about a process of:

    • expanding your thinking and ways of expressing it, through a wide-ranging and inquisitive engagement with the topic at hand, underpinned by curiosity, passion and an open mind.
    • experimenting and trying new things, knowing that not everything will work, and that we might get things wrong, but that we’ll learn something new along the way.
    • developing confidence in your own thinking and ideas. This is not about arrogance or about working in isolation – our thinking is always developed in collaboration and through building on other people’s ideas. But, from my own experience, I have come to see the importance of developing confidence in your own ideas. Without this, it’s easy to fall into the trap of trying to write what you think someone else wants you to say rather than what you want to say. This foundation is also important when working collaboratively with others, so that we can contribute our best thinking rather than feeling we don’t have anything important to bring to the conversation.
    • asking the deeper questions about the topic at hand and how you are expressing your thinking about it. Some of these might include: (How) does what I’m writing engage with dominant societal structures? What are the gaps or silences in what I am writing? Are there other people it is important to connect with in thinking about this topic? Such questions resonate with Mairs’ point about the need to break down the distinction between critical and creative work. Critical writing is creative and the best creative writing (in my view!) engages with critical questions.
    • slowing down. In order to be creative, we need space to slow down, daydream and imagine the unknown. We need time to look out the window, listen to the birds and ‘do nothing’. This in itself goes against capitalist productivity culture. It also leads to questions of resources and access: sadly, time and space to do nothing is hard to come by and ill afforded by many. Questions about creativity can therefore not be disconnected from questions of inequality. One of the many ‘impossible things’ we need to imagine is how to create a society where everyone’s needs are met and everyone has the space to exercise their innate creativity in ways that are meaningful to them.

    This list is not meant to be definitive. It is a work in progress, as I am not done thinking about this topic, but hopefully it provides some useful food for thought. Maybe you have other ingredients to add? I’d love to hear from you.

    Image: I took this photo some years ago somewhere along the River Lee in Hackney Marshes, London. The graffiti reads ‘what is this life if full of care, / we have no time to stand and stare?’. The lines come from the poem ‘Leisure’ by W.H. Davies.

  • creativity, craft and connection – or, why I’m starting a blog

    creativity, craft and connection – or, why I’m starting a blog

    At the end of 2022, my partner gave birth to our son. It may be a cliché, but it has been truly humbling to nurture and be alongside this new human as he discovers the world around him, witnessing him use his innate creativity and curiosity to notice new things and learn new skills (such as chewing his toes and rolling over on his tummy!).

    Perhaps not coincidentally, despite being fairly exhausted, I have been feeling more creative myself this year. I’ve been writing more (often typing into my phone while holding a sleeping baby), generating ideas for stories and other pieces, playing with words and splurging rough drafts of poems in my journal. I’ve been wanting to write more publicly again and to stop procrastinating on my writing plans, which include both fiction as well as more non-fiction writing.

    As a starting point, I have decided to set up a blog with the aim of encouraging writers, myself included, to embrace creativity in our practice, whatever kind of writing we’re doing. I’ll be exploring what creativity is, how we can play and experiment with our writing, antidotes to perfectionism and more. I’ll be drawing on a range of literature and other sources that, in different ways, touch on creativity, craft and connection, as well as on the politics of language and writing (because everything is political!).

    One of the things I want to explore in the blog is the relationship between fiction and non-fiction writing – particularly in terms of craft, techniques and the use of storytelling. Although I primarily edit non-fiction at the moment, I am in the process of developing my skills to also edit fiction in the future, so the blog’s focus may start to reflect that over time. For me, writing is about communicating and connecting with others. It enables us to develop and share our ideas and thinking. So I hope that, by putting more of my thinking out here, writers looking for an editor might learn more about me and my approach and whether we’d be a good fit. But, more generally, if you’re interested in the topics I’m writing about, I’m keen to connect with you whether you’re looking for an editor or not. I love geeking out and learning together with others passionate about words and writing!

    Image by Albrecht Fietz from Pixabay.